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I am supposed to be sitting on the sofa and wait for the Phonebooth to start, but I decided to make a quick post before it.

Tomorrow it’s Mothers Day and my grandfather’s 74th birthday, we’re gonna celebrate both by gathering to my grandfather’s house. My aunt is also back from Boston and hopefully, will be there too, with something nice from the States for me :)

Tomorrow I also have to start reading for the last exams I have, aka. The Big Stress. I feel like loosing my breath even just thinking about it. It’s something so important that.. I just don’t wanna fuck up. I don’t want to take any retry exams (I haven’t done any retry exams so far!). I know I blow it out of proportion with my usual over stressing everything.. but maybe I’m just scared of the future. After 2½ weeks I’ll be “unemployed” again and god knows how shitty feeling that was and is. I’m 27 years old and I just can’t stay unemployed for a long time. Sure I’ll keep a few weeks vacation but after that, I have to find work! I can’t understand why it’s been so hard for me to find anything. Maybe it’s just the fact that there aren’t any much jobs here.. I don’t know, maybe I don’t know enough about coding then?… see, here I go again, stressing over something that’s in the future. Near future, but still.

Oh and the new hairdo..
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Over two weeks and no proper post? We shall correct that immediately. Referring to my earlier post, where I told you about the interview.. I waited for the extra questions and tasks up to next Monday but that guy never e-mailed me anything so I decided to mail him instead and ask what’s up. Few hours later I received an e-mail with his apologies that he didn’t contact me earlier or send me any extra tasks, like he promised at the interview. But their HTML/CSS-specialist had taken a deeper looked at my sites, and he said that they were developable and I left all around a very positive impression… but… the word I feared the most. They’ve hired a “concept designer” who has XHTML/CSS-skills also, and that designer will be starting at May. They want to see how busy the designer will be and is she/he be able to handle the coding stuff too, or do they have to hire a separate coder as well. They’ll know better at the end of May, at the earliest and after that they will contact me. He did mention about the concept designer at the interview (that they’ve hired one), but he never said anything about the designer being able to code XHTML/CSS too!?! Maybe they were just checking out that if there’s an über hardcore coder out there, they’ll grab it first? Of course I’m waiting for that possible phone call/e-mail at the end of May, but.. but.. I don’t know. I just got soo excited :( That finally I’d get a proper job, be able to do something I’m good at and develop my skills furthermore.

School.. feels so slow and evil, especially Tuesdays when I have 4 hours of Maths about investment calculations and budgeting. Budgeting is pretty easy but not investment calculations, I hate maths, I suck at maths. And I always seem to miss my teacher who has my final thesis waiting for me to fix it. Our Finnish teacher has read it once and marked the things that need fixing.. it should be returned (fixed version) next week >_< But still on a positive side, only 3 ½ weeks to go!

My aunt left to Boston yesterday and I gave him a list of “must have” things to buy for me :) Something nice from Starbucks and few make-up things that aren’t available here in Finland. Yay.

I also got chance to meet my Australian friend Claire! I’ve known her online for several years already and this year she is an exchange student here in Oulu! It was so exciting and fun to finally get to meet her face to face :) I know I was a bit nervous to meet her and babling like crazy and forgetting the easiest words there are… :D but she was nice about it and I got to talk English with someone who isn’t Finnish ^^,

And now to the title of the post: Walpurgis Night just another excuse for the Finns to get drunk. And besides I don’t belong to the “working” people, I’m not a graduate (from lukio) and I’m certainly not interested in politics, so that’s my excuse of staying home this evening with bottle of cola and good food and Madonna’s Hard Candy. Tomorrow though when it’s May Day I’ll visit the city buy the first ice-cream this year, drink some mead, eat cotton candy (yeah loads of sugar, but it’s May Day!) and visit my granpa and mom. 4 day weekend is just what I need.

Teresa is holding a new contest over at her personal blog. Those entering have a chance at winning a lovely and uniquely designed dandelion handbag by Rebecca Weis. Teresa is willing to ship this item anywhere, so anyone can participate.

Yesterday I got an e-mail from this digital advertising agency where I applied for a (x)html/css-coder job. And first I thought (after receiving several similar e-mails already) that great, another “we thank you for your application, but unfortunately you were not chosen.” I opened and it said “Hi, I’m in Oulu this week, when could you meet me?” (the agency is located at Helsinki at the moment, but they’re opening an office to Oulu in August) it was the boss himself mailing me and I was so freaking happy that I could’ve jumped through the roof! Of course I was ready to meet him the next day (which was today) and after intense (and tiring) 4 hour Maths-session at school I was on a bus, on my way to meet to meet him! I was pretty nervous at first but after I saw him in front of the cafe where we agreed to meet, all the tension sort of went away. He was really nice, laid back and friendly. He liked my sites a lot, and he even said that I was the ONLY one who had any decent proof of coding skills. It also came up that they were looking for someone who knew they’re way around WordPress.. and I was so amazed and happy to hear that (and tried not to shreak “me! me! I know that too!”), cause they never said anything about it at the job advertisement. So for a moment there, he was asking me about all the things that one can do with WordPress :D We chatted for a 1½ hours and after the interview he said that he’d be sending me few questions and assignments for me to, before they decide anything. And they’d let me know by the end of next week that am I chosen. Please please please keep your fingers and toes crossed for me okay?!! This would be the ideal dream job for me! YAY! :D

Sometimes I just hate people, why do people, your friends and sometimes even family dare to lie to your face, even when they know that I know that they are lying to me! No matter how small or big thing, just don’t lie, it’s fucking annoying, stupid, ignorant, disgracing and it makes me feel very very.. stupid! One would think that after knowing someone for 10 years, we’d know each other well enough, so we wouldn’t have to lie to each other, but no.

And out of several applications for jobs (regular, part-time and summer) I’ve got already three “thanks but unfortunately we didn’t choose you” (…because you’re idiot and we don’t want you) e-mails, gah! I just want a job! How come some people just have to ring through a few places and that’s enough for them to get a job! And those who do have a job dare to whine that “oooh this job is so stressful, I wish I had the same free time like you do”, what the fucK?! free time?!?! another gah! *headdesk*

Yes this day has been a bit annoying if you didn’t guess it already. Funnily enough I haven’t been stressing out about school this time (only thinking of adding some more stuff to my final thesis, after hearing that one of the guys at my class wrote 48 pages…) I’ve been just extremely annoyed cause of the stupid (and lying) people around me today.

But this is my first weekend, for a very long time, when I’m not stressed/annoyed because of trainee job.. it’s very weird actually. 16 weeks gone just like that and now I feel that.. I can actually laugh at all the crazy things that crazy woman said to me.

I know how tiring it can be when you have a lot of friends and they have blog or several blogs you want to read and keep up with. Or you own a blog and you want to inform your trusty readers whenever you update it.. Well I have come across the perfect solution for all bloggers and blog readers! It’s Zookoda! and before you say anything, no it is not just one of those copy and paste places, with gigantic ugly adverts blinking everywhere, saying “you’ve wone a million dollars”. This is the real stuff! Zookoda is an email marketing application designed especially for bloggers. This application enables you to send a daily, weekly or monthly summary of your latest blog posts and it’s all complete free! And what I like the best about Zookoda that you can actually design the newsletter and subscription forms so that they have the same look like your blog. Zookoda isn’t just a newsletter application I think, cause at the same time you have a list of your active visitors and readers, like a sort of visitor base. Of course statistics are provided too so you know what’s going on, is your newsletter attracting new readers, oh and almost forgot, now you can reach mobile blog readers as well because you can email blog content in text format to them! Does it all sound just too good to be true? So why don’t you have give it a go and let me know do you and/or your readers like it? :)

I’m so freaking excited right now, I know I should be sleeping already but I can’t yet. I want to watch “House” first and post about me FINISHING my final thesis today! ta-daa! Feels like a huge weight has been lifted from my back, of course I’ve sent it to my beta-readers so they can point and laugh correct/let me know about my mistakes in it and if it’s just full of bull or is it perhaps missing something essential. But most of the work has been done now! So next thing to stress about? 1) presenting the final thesis to my class 2) Is my trainee job approvable? (I won’t believe it until my tutor says it) 3) 10 minute teaching lesson in English, in front of my class. I have ONE trainee job day left! I have 8 weeks of school left and then I’ll (if all goes well) graduate!

Random things:

• I’ve started to watch Stargate SG-1 again, starting from unseen eps (season 7 –>)
• I got an alpha invite for SocialSpark and hopefully I’ll be getting some money through it
• I’ve started another online fan project that I thought of doing last year but didn’t have the time or the energy
• I’ve realised how shallow and simple one of my friends really is, sad but true
• I’m thinking of ditching/minimizing some online-projects I have.. I want to focus on those that I really care about
• I’ve been typing applications like crazy to anywhere I can think of, so keep your fingers crossed, I NEED A JOB!
• I’m tired!

Okay, now I’m off to bed, I’ll record House! :)

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